the journey so far...

.. has been amazing, top it up with an emotional roller coaster ride.. i was an emotional wreck but now as the pregnancy progresses, i'm so much better =) at times i wish that this pregnancy can end faster so i don't have to carry the weight with me on this petite body of mine but at the same time, i don't think i want it to end any sooner either.. this pregnancy has made me a very confused lady. On a good day, that means, no vomitting and no splitting headache, i enjoyed my day so much but on days that i have all the pregnancy symptoms... i get very agitated & yes, emotional! (*-*) and when i do have all these symptoms, my hub and Daniyal suffered the most.. haha.. i can be shouting at the top of my lungs for a minor minor incident and the next minute, i can be cuddling up to them and joking around.. i shuddered at the thought of how my twins will turn out.. lol.. obviously i'm not wishing that they will turn into a mini tarzan.. :P now, how i hope that all the myths about how the babies will take after their mothers' personality during pregnancy are soo soo untrue!

so how was the journey..?? the discovery of the much awaited pregnancy, the revelation and the surprised that were in store for Hub and myself..

When I missed my menses for the whole month, I wasn't very excited and I did not purchase the PTK immediately because I know, that wasn't the first time that my menses was late.. I have a series of irregular menses and deep inside, i wasn't ready for another disappointment so I decided to wait... i even went for a pre-employment check up with the current employer that i am with and readily signed the I AM NOT PREGNANT column on the Xray form.. i know, i'm %^&*! LOL. So then, the intuition that I am pregnant was just so so strong.. plus the body aches that I was having, I decided to buy the PTK.. but still, i decided to wait.. so the stubborn right? Next morning, during my morning shower, i decided to test and hey!!!! it didn't take 5mins for the PTK to turn positive.. I was like.. Huh?! Called Hub who was at work and he was like Huh?! too.. *slaps forehead* You can say we were more Shocked than Thrilled.. haha.

So yeah, I had wanted to buy another PTK just to ensure that I didn't test wrongly but Hub insisted on seeing the gynae instead so a week later, we went.. I did my first abdominal scan (but had to painfully fill up my bladder before that) to confirm the pregnancy..

So what you see above is the scan image at my 5th week of pregnancy.. The huge black round thingy is the foetus and this, so called confirmed the pregnancy..

What surprised us was the next visit at my 8th week of pregnancy.. somehow.. I had a gut feeling that I am carrying more than 1 foetus but I shoved the thought away.. thinking, I couldn't be very lucky, can I?

Can you spot the 2 foetuses on the 1st image?? The 2 foetuses that are developing to form a human like shape, and the heads bulging?? The moment my gynae placed the 'scanner' on my abdomen, he asked me whether I have an inkling as to what is going on in my tummy.. I looked at the image on the screen and exclaimed " I'm having TWINS? ".. *faints* no lah.. fainting would be too drama-mama.. LOL.. and Hub?? He was surprised.. grinning from ear to ear but at the same time, still the same old blur him asking.. WHERE?? like duh! Well, it seems that the HUGE black foetus has since splitted to form 2 foetuses after my 5th week and this, my gynae claimed is an identical twin pregnancy because it resulted from 1 egg that splits.. furthermore, they are sharing 1 placenta but each of them has their own waterbag.. which is a relieved! =) Well, after the revelation, my life was topsy turvy... If with Daniyal I had bad bad morning sickness, with the twins, I have worst!! I couldn't keep my meals in the tummy for the first 4 months.. I had to rely on milk milk and more milk.. Gradually, things get better and now that I am at my 24th weeks, I never felt better although I'm battling with cramps almost every morning.. I went for a detailed scan at East Shore Hospital last month and it is confirmed by the sonographer that I am carrying Twin Girls.. =)

Whilst Twin A scan image shows a very clear image of a Girl, Twin B is still very doubtful to me lor.. I don't know from which angle in this image that the sonographer concluded that Twin B is also a Girl.. However, I'll leave it to the hands of the experts since my gynae had told me before that he suspected that I am carrying twin girls too.. So we shall leave it at that, yeah?? I am very pleased with my pregnancy so far and I can finally put my mind at ease after my gynae gave an all clear, an indication that everything is going on well, the babies are growing well although not of equal weight (common in twin pregnancy) and that i should just concentrate to eat and sleep well and enjoy my pregnancy for the next 3 months or so..

And now.. for the not so good news.. Daniyal contracted chicken pox last Sunday and I was hysterical. Hysterical because he was running a fever and also because, all the plans to bring him out during the school holidays are spoilt! Tsk..tsk.. Before he had chicken pox, the school has already warned me that a few kids were having it and that chances are anyone attending school can be infected. Lucky for Daniyal he got himself vaccinated against chicken pox at a young age so the breakout wasn't that bad for him.. Vaccination is just a prevention.. it's not a guarantee.. well, better to have it now than later once the twins are out.. if that was the case, I'd guess I'd be even more hysterical!!!

Calamine lotion all over his body! I was told NOT to bathe him BUT I chose NOT to believe that 'someone', did some googling on chicken pox and it stated clearly that HE HAS TO REMAIN HYGIENIC.. so, how to remain hygienic if you don't bathe? After some discussion with Mom, we decided that he has to bathe every 3 hours and re-apply the calamine lotion every now and then. My gynae has given me the green light to 'nurse' Daniyal because I had chicken pox before and my pregnancy is fine.. although, I still have to be careful.. So what I did was.. bathed often and washed my hands after nursing him.. Hehehe.. My utilities bill is soooo going to escalate this month! Haha.

That's ME @ 24th weeks of pregnancy.. Glowing?? no?? but definitely GROWING.. it's serious business.. I tipped the scale at 69kg now.. ooooooh... I wonder how much more i'll gain in the next 3 months.. :P