I'm Beginning...

to regret my decision..

I hope I wasn't responsible for the condition he IS in now.. probably I was in a hurry to educate him and now that he's stressed.. it feels like *shit.. I'm sorry baby.. You've been sick for almost a month now and worst, you've lost your voice due to the constant coughing.. I feel bad. How I wish I am in his position.. You know I'd prefer you to smile than cry.. prefer you to scream than whine..

I've made a decision.. to put him out of childcare for now.. put him back with my mom to recuperate.. Mom welcomed my decision.. She felt bad too.. I hope this is the end to the sickening and annoying beginning..

Advise to ALL mothers out here in BS: Don't rush your children into childcare.. the sudden long hours of being away from home will make them sick!! I failed to notice the signs that my son's missing my tender loving care or even his grandma's touch.. Someone made me realised and I'm glad she did.. Please consider full time childcare as your very LAST resort.. You can't make an outsider care a lot for someone whose not their flesh and blood.. I made a mistake.. I hope you won't..