wassup??!

practically the same OLD thing =) tomorrow will be my FINAL check up before the Gynae makes a decision whether I should be induced.. If not, then it'll be 10 days from tomorrow.. My gut feeling? I'll go through the entire induced process again, just like what I had gone through, 5 years ago.. So, let nature takes its own course and of course I do not deny that I AM FEELING THE JITTERS but I'm sure, I'll do FINE. I'll just have to think POSITIVELY. The twins are sensing that they are coming into the world anytime soon and hence have been very active since the past 2 days.. and every time they move, stretch or kick, I'd cringed because it's so painful 'down under'..

But, what was more PAINFUL was the conversation I had with Daniyal, just 2 days ago. I was requesting that I want to bring his favourite pillow to the hospital with me because I know, I'm gonna miss him oh-so-terribly.. because practically on nights that the Hub is working, Daniyal is the one who accompany me to sleep.. So when I requested for his pillow he replied:

"Why my pillow? Why not bring me instead?" *heart shatters*

When I said that is not possible considering that I'll be in pain etc etc.. he said:

"Don't worry, I'll help you.. I'll massage your back" (hm.. obviously he hasn't understand what I mean by 'pain')

And when I say, I'll be busy with the babies.. he said:

"What about me? Are you going to 'sayang' me as well?"

Dear Daniyal, you not only grow in my tummy, but, you grow in my HEART too.. How can I NOT show you the care, concern and attention? Things will NOT change, I PROMISE! :) The only change that's gonna take place is, dividing the attention but of course, the 3 of you will receive the equal amount of it and for that, your dad and I, have decided that, we will be having your 5th birthday celebration with the entire family and as per your request, BEN 10, will be your theme.. I'm sure with the arrival of the twins, everyone will be so hyped about them that they somehow, will neglect you, unknowingly.. So, we hope, in having this birthday celebration, they will still remember that YOU, do exist.. =)

So, allow me now, to concentrate on the delivery of your sisters, nurse them well so they'll be as healthy as when you were born and once our lives are more settled, I promise I'll work on your birthday celebration in July.. Even if the celebration is a small affair between families, I do hope you see the sincerity in us having it for you..

This may be my final entry before I deliver, but I promise, I'll try to blog on my new LIFE as soon as I settled down.. For now, wish me LUCK =)

So, is it gonna be 01062010? Let's just wait and see.